The Abyss

[00:00.000] 作词 : Daniel Nwosu Jr./Alex Nour
[00:00.890] 作曲 : Daniel Nwosu Jr./Alex Nour
[00:01.780]Everything I did I always gave it my best
[00:04.020]I don't know if anyone relates
[00:05.419]But the feeling that I get is like a truck sitting on my chest
[00:08.218]Wondering how much do I got left
[00:10.363]My last call, my last step
[00:12.390]I'm not gonna wait just to see what's next
[00:14.547]I go hard 'cause today could be my last breath
[00:16.756]We do life and we can relive it
[00:20.100]We only get one chance, if you blink, then you might just miss it
[00:24.716]Many people come and go, they all just visit
[00:28.084]Don't ever expect nothin' different
[00:29.824]Just listen as I paint this image that you all revisit
[00:32.776]I'm a glass half empty but I still might sip it
[00:35.091]I was traumatized
[00:37.753]What would you have said when you was looking in my Mama's eyes
[00:41.380]Nothin'
[00:42.074]Yeah I might have said I was okay but I probably lied
[00:45.242]So this pain is how I harmonize
[00:46.637]Making impact that's what I personify
[00:48.726]Yes I'm making music that you cannot just define by the numbers on my Spotify
[00:52.098]All of this pain I just wanna be happy
[00:54.138]Momma almost died the same day that she had me
[00:56.217]Driving to the hospital, she swerved and crashed badly
[00:58.333]Doctor said I was a miracle while looking at my Daddy
[01:00.843]I was zero when I first dodged death
[01:02.613]I was six when the devil told me watch my step
[01:04.608]Couldn't sleep I was scared to go inside my bed
[01:06.980]Fighting demons I was hearing things inside my head
[01:09.205]So back to the Doctor he didn't have a diagnosis
[01:13.193]So my whole damn life I felt lost while fighting psychosis
[01:16.041]Talking to myself hoping nobody would notice
[01:18.076]Mom said pray every time I heard the voices
[01:20.387]Life or death, every day I swear I made choices
[01:22.398]Life in my hand trying not to lose focus
[01:24.529]Playing basketball religiously to drown out the noises man
[01:27.022]Let me explain that it's like laying on train tracks
[01:28.894]Grabbing guns contemplating blowing your brain back
[01:30.972]Eyes closed shut watching everything fade black
[01:33.313]People stepping over you you feel like a placemat
[01:35.651]**** and let me make it clear
[01:37.708]God is the only one that I've ever feared
[01:39.727]But you start to get paranoid and look over your shoulder
[01:41.863]When these people have been hurting you for so many years
[01:44.155]So I had to escape
[01:45.915]If you listening I know that you relate
[01:47.893]Is that feeling that you get like your life and existence was all just one big mistake
[01:52.105]I felt trapped and I couldn't find space
[01:54.024]I went and got lost in the things I create
[01:55.847]Ever since I was a kid, people hated and they judged everything that I did
[01:59.445]So I went into my mind and created the abyss
[02:01.624]Man I swear I did
[02:03.943]How the hell y'all think I make all these hits
[02:06.073]It's 'cause I've been broken, beat and dragged
[02:08.279]Laughed at scorn, burned and kicked
[02:10.448]So I get to reach in this endless pit
[02:12.444]Of hurt and pain from all that shit
[02:14.713]And that's the only reason that your people come here
[02:16.797]Or for God's sake even though that Dax exist
[02:19.101]This is how it feels to drown
[02:21.038]This is how it looks when you're lost and you can't be found
[02:23.443]The abyss was a place I'd visit
[02:24.875]But I went so much that I'm gone and I'm stuck here now
[02:27.993]This is not music, this is not dope
[02:29.958]This is me begging y'all to throw me a rope
[02:32.029]So I can try to climb up the place where I came in my life
[02:34.817]When I spiral then first lost hope
[02:36.522]Let me explain
[02:39.362]I've been Dax so long I got PTSD when somebody says my real name
[02:44.495]But I guess that's the price you pay
[02:46.881]I didn't want it to be like this
[02:49.742]But I guess it is what it is
[02:54.068]Inside the abyss