Balloons

[00:00.000] 作词 : Tom MacDonald/Nova Paholek
[00:01.000] 作曲 : Tom MacDonald/Nova Paholek
[00:05.853] (Huh)
[00:10.962] (Ooh)
[00:12.556] I miss the days when no one even knew my name
[00:15.317] Now everywhere I go I wear a hat to hide my face
[00:18.304] I got weapons hidden inside every room in my place
[00:21.162] Now I have to keep a pistol on me always just in case
[00:24.270] This is a nightmare, never expected the fame
[00:27.454] To be something I would wrestle with and fight to embrace
[00:29.953] Sometimes I feel like the love I get's outweighed by the hate
[00:33.221] I hid the tears, but I can't hide from the pain
[00:36.281] I'm workin' 20-hour days, can't even lie to y'all, I'm burnt out
[00:39.721] I sleep on my weight bench, tryna find the strength to work out
[00:42.892] Should be happy I'm successful, I just went and bought my first house
[00:45.986] Thought money would help cure my depression, but it's worse, how?
[00:49.161] Tired of it, lucky I don't have a manager 'cause I'd be firin' him
[00:52.209] Tired of talkin' to other artists
[00:53.976] Who just wanna tell me I'm inspirin' them
[00:55.713] Parents keep tellin' me they have a kid
[00:57.005] And they're thankful the child is admirin' me
[00:58.649] Great, you wanna know how I feel?
[01:00.233] I might kill myself before retiring
[01:03.167] I'm in the clouds
[01:06.196] I can't reach the ground
[01:09.211] They're comin' in crowds
[01:11.502] Blew me up like a balloon and let me-
[01:14.165] Go
[01:15.304] Watch me float away, well, I scream "no"
[01:17.967] Every time I get close, they pull out their phones
[01:21.124] Like "Maybe this time we can see him explode"
[01:24.181] Blew me up like a balloon and let me go
[01:26.422] They all throwin' rocks 'cause they're tryna poke holes
[01:30.410] They wanna see me pop, they don't wanna see me blow
[01:33.431] They're the reason that I'm gone, they don't wanna see me blow
[01:36.234] Blew me up like a balloon and left me
[01:38.932] I miss the times when I could go outside
[01:41.902] I didn't have to watch my back out of the corner of my eye
[01:44.569] I didn't have to fake a smile and pose for pictures all the time
[01:48.007] Can't even lie, I miss when time was really mine
[01:51.229] Now I just belong to everybody else but me
[01:53.893] These panic attacks are makin' it awful hard to breathe
[01:57.384] Built a vocal booth inside the crib and stopped makin' beats
[02:00.106] Don't even rap, I stand inside of it and scream
[02:02.828] Like this is not what I expected, I worked my hands to the bone
[02:06.417] And my anxiety is triggered by the apps on my phone
[02:09.698] I tried deleting them so the Internet would leave me alone
[02:12.587] But the lack of attention made me feel worse than before
[02:15.919] I'm sick of it all, the Internet watchin' me trip when I fall
[02:18.380] Embarrassed that everyone witnesses all
[02:20.032] My illnesses in real time, man, I'm addicted to y'all
[02:22.224] Rappers on Twitter don't get me involved
[02:23.724] I'm posing for photos with fans in the mall
[02:25.296] I'm dying inside, pretending I'm strong
[02:26.787] I'm not a celebrity, I am just Tom
[02:30.142] I'm in the clouds (Huhuhuhuhuh)
[02:32.951] I can't reach the ground (Huh)
[02:35.769] They're comin' in crowds (****)
[02:37.969] Blew me up like a balloon and let me- (I just can't do this shit anymore)
[02:40.869] Go
[02:41.959] Watch me float away, well, I scream "no"
[02:44.689] Every time I get close, they pull out their phones
[02:47.830] Like "Maybe this time we can see him explode"
[02:50.556] Blew me up like a balloon and let me go
[02:53.289] They all throwin' rocks 'cause they're tryna poke holes
[02:56.928] They wanna see me pop, they don't wanna see me blow
[03:00.014] They're the reason that I'm gone, they don't wanna see me blow
[03:03.052] Blew me up like a balloon and left me
[03:05.837] I miss the years when every Friday wasn't spent with my therapist
[03:08.696] Then I realized I hated fame and accepted that I'm scared of it
[03:12.013] I got Ativan, Cipralex, Xanax and Seraquel
[03:14.702] In a tupperware container, I don't touch, I just stare at 'em
[03:17.847] Breathin' exercises supposed to help me to cope
[03:20.760] But nothin' works quite as good as a bottle of jack and a smoke
[03:23.475] I try to focus on my breath but it gets stuck in my throat
[03:26.988] This never happened back when I was young and happy and broke
[03:29.732] I never thought I'd be the rapper all these rappers try to be
[03:33.148] Posting twenty times a day, now I don't have no privacy
[03:36.746] Meeting with these major labels, CEOs with giant teams
[03:39.598] If y'all wanna do business, why are y'all tryna lie to me?
[03:42.700] I'm bored of the fame
[03:43.645] Every time it feels fresh again I'm gettin' more of the same
[03:46.003] Interviewers think they know who I am
[03:47.330] They made up their mind before I explain
[03:48.967] Well, because you asked so nice, I guess I'll tell
[03:51.934] Ain't been feelin' too hot lately, Jim, is there anything else? Great
[03:55.002] 'Cause lately every day I feel like I'm livin' in hell
[03:57.884] I'm glad the music helps you, but I might really kill myself
[04:01.003] When this magazine gets printed, can you send one to my house?
[04:04.088] I'd like to own a tiny piece of me like everybody else
[04:07.552] Go
[04:08.620] Watch me float away, well, I scream "no"
[04:11.249] Every time I get close, they pull out their phones
[04:14.363] Like "Maybe this time we can see him explode"
[04:17.409] Blew me up like a balloon and let me go
[04:20.988] They all throwin' rocks 'cause they're tryna poke holes
[04:23.634] They wanna see me pop, they don't wanna see me blow
[04:26.744] They're the reason that I'm gone, they don't wanna see me blow
[04:29.769] Blew me up like a balloon and left me