Popular Monster

[00:00.93]Yeah
[00:05.69]I wake up every morning with my head up in a daze
[00:08.38]I'm not sure if I should say this, ****, I'll say it anyway
[00:11.17]Everybody tries to tell me that I'm going through a phase
[00:14.05]I don't know if it's a phase, I just wanna feel okay, yeah
[00:17.42]I battle with depression, but the question still remains
[00:20.00]Is this post-traumatic stressing or am I suppressing rage?
[00:22.84]And my doctor tries to tell me that I'm going through a phase
[00:25.73]Yeah, it's not a ****ing phase, I just wanna feel okay, okay
[00:29.41]Yeah, I struggle with this bullshit every day
[00:31.51]And it's probably 'cause my demons simultaneously rage
[00:34.34]And it obliterates me, disintegrates me, annihilates me
[00:39.23]'Cause I'm about to break down, searching for a way out
[00:44.74]I'm a liar, I'm a cheater, I'm a non-believer,
[00:49.20]I'm a popular, popular monster
[00:52.42]I break down, falling into love now with falling apart
[01:00.91]I'm a popular, popular monster
[01:08.41]I think I'm going nowhere like a rat trapped in a maze
[01:12.66]Every wall that I knocked down is just a wall that I replace
[01:15.22]I'm in a race against myself, I try to keep a steady pace
[01:18.00]How the **** will I escape if I never close my case?
[01:20.98]Oh my God, I keep on stressing, every second that I waste
[01:23.81]Is another second sooner to a blessing I won't take
[01:26.77]But my therapist will tell me that I'm going through a stage
[01:29.77]Yeah, it's not a ****ing stage, I just wanna feel okay, okay
[01:33.48]Mother****er, now you got my attention
[01:35.46]I need to change a couple things 'cause something is missing
[01:38.32]And what if I were to lie? Tell you everything is fine
[01:41.33]Every single ****ing day
[01:42.68]I get closer to the grave, I am terrified
[01:45.41]I fell asleep at the wheel again
[01:47.71]Crashed my car just to feel again
[01:50.49]It obliterates me, disintegrates me, annihilates me
[01:54.87]'Cause I'm about to break down, searching for a way out
[02:00.52]I'm a liar, I'm a cheater, I'm a non-believer,
[02:04.85]I'm a popular, popular monster
[02:08.03]I break down, falling into love now with falling apart
[02:16.47]I'm a popular, popular ****ing monster
[02:19.85]Yeah, here we go again, mother****er, oh
[02:30.59]We're sick and tired of wondering
[02:33.64]Praying to a god that you don't believe
[02:36.85]We're searching for the truth in the lost and found
[02:39.68]So the question I ask is, oh, where the **** is your god now?
[02:54.36]'Cause I'm about to break down, searching for a way out
[03:00.19]I'm a liar, I'm a cheater, I'm a non-believer,
[03:04.36]I'm a popular, popular monster
[03:07.69]I break down, falling into love now with falling apart
[03:16.29]I'm a popular, popular monster
[03:24.98]I'm a liar, I'm a cheater, I'm a non-believer,
[03:27.84]I'm a popular, popular monster