PTSD (Explicit)

[00:00.00]Young Hysan - PTSD (Explicit)
[00:00.71]Written by：Young Hysan
[00:01.32]Composed by：Young Hysan
[00:10.08]Can't find no peace of mind
[00:11.53]Can't even sleep if I tried
[00:12.69]These demons creep through my mind everyday
[00:14.95]I'm paranoid and I'm tired
[00:16.36]Can't leave the street sh*t behind me
[00:17.72]This PTSD remind me everyday
[00:20.02]Can't find no peace of mind
[00:21.34]I seek relief from these highs
[00:22.65]The sweet release from what's hiding in my brain yeah
[00:26.05]Feeling like I can't be
[00:29.07]I'm just trying to run away yeah
[00:32.08]I'm just trying to run away
[00:35.62]Cause I feel like I can't be saved
[00:38.17]I feel like I can't be saved
[00:40.06]I'm just trying to run away
[00:42.54]I'm just trying to run away
[00:45.50]Cause I feel like I can't be saved
[00:49.79]Can't find no peace of mind
[00:51.01]Can't leave these streets if I tried
[00:52.29]No TV screen this sh*t live where I stay
[00:54.61]Smoke streaming through the sky
[00:56.02]Police shooting at toddlers
[00:57.21]People freaking when sirens on the way
[00:59.66]I tried I really tried
[01:01.02]These kids really be dying
[01:02.29]Still you rather scrutinize what I'm saying
[01:04.52]You rather focus on a line
[01:05.83]And twist it to speak these lies
[01:07.10]Acting like the f**king 9 on my case
[01:09.37]Came up outta trenches I been keeping that aggression
[01:11.54]Cause there ain't no code of ethics
[01:12.78]They just wanna see me go down
[01:14.19]Call in crowd control cause every show we do a full house
[01:16.76]God made me his vessel I can't ever sell my soul
[01:18.98]Yeah the recognise the real OG's bumping my sh*t they feel me
[01:21.49]Them labels fight for deals
[01:22.35]They know last summer I made a milli
[01:24.01]They tryna steal my style
[01:25.02]I know your pain don't come from the field
[01:26.67]Real pain the type to never heal
[01:28.43]I'm just trying to run away yeah
[01:31.53]I'm just trying to run away
[01:34.92]Cause I feel like I can't be saved
[01:37.60]I feel like I can't be saved
[01:39.51]I'm just trying to run away
[01:41.99]I'm just trying to run away
[01:44.72]Cause I feel like I can't be saved
[01:47.84]God I hate being stuck going back to the dirt
[01:50.54]Everyday somebody test me for my capital worth
[01:52.90]Said they out to catch me lacking so we catching em first
[01:55.37]Stomp they a** out on the curb
[01:56.48]Cause they don't learn until they back with the nurse aye
[01:59.59]God I'm tried to stay out of the violence
[02:01.82]I promised I would better myself
[02:03.37]Promised momma that I was done yeah I said it myself
[02:05.80]Suspended sentence above my head I ain't tryna end up in jail
[02:08.28]So I can't trip over this bullsh*t they be starting over pride
[02:10.84]Just to spend 25 in the pen by myself
[02:13.20]God I swear these streets could never prevail
[02:15.29]But after all I done
[02:16.45]I still can't get myself out the field
[02:18.82]Can't find no peace of mind
[02:20.15]Can't even sleep if I tried
[02:21.31]These demons creep through my mind everyday
[02:23.75]I'm paranoid and I'm tired
[02:25.09]Can't leave the street sh*t behind me
[02:26.52]This PTSD remind me everyday
[02:28.79]Can't find no peace of mind
[02:30.17]I seek relief from these highs
[02:31.28]The sweet release from what's hiding in my brain yeah
[02:34.61]Feeling like I can't be saved
[02:37.62]I'm just trying to run away yeah
[02:40.76]I'm just trying to run away
[02:44.20]Cause I feel like I can't be saved
[02:46.73]I feel like I can't be saved
[02:48.78]I'm just trying to run away
[02:51.42]I'm just trying to run away
[02:54.09]Cause I feel like I can't be saved
[02:56.80]I feel like I can't be saved